answer the call

i am so blessed to have jesus telling me what to do... i need to heed his voice more for sure, and obey more. but God is totally the alpha and omega of my life. that's it! he is SOOOO faithful to answer prayers, and even if we pray because we don't see fruit in our lives... at least we're praying for fruit! God, I thank you that you're teaching my hands to war. God, you are good. I'm glad you go before me in war! We know that you are victorious, Jesus. Thank you to my brother and sister in Christ Kevin and Amara~!

We will overcome by the blood of the lamb and the WORD of our testimony

LET THE REDEEMED OF THE LORD SAY SO! I am so blessed to be able to minister to amazing women of God. They're so awesome. My prayer is this that NOTHING shall come against them and stand. Because we're the ones that are supposed be standing after the battle is through. I am thankful for everyone in the college group. I feel like things are shifting big time. And it's for God's good and kingdom increase. God has opened up a new realm of himself in reviving us and freeing us. There has been walls broken down of fear, hate, self-doubt, etc. God has opened up new identities in us, since the old person is gone in us. I have been crucified with Christ, and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me, the life I live in the body, I live by FAITH in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

day two: modification yes.

So, I'm modifying God's fast for me. I'm going to do sun up to sun down. So, I'll probably have a meal around 7pm. Most importantly, I want to find an ideal time to pray and really seek the face of the Lord. I just want him to hide me under his wing. I'm so very excited about this new vision. I am going under the vision of my church, ACTS Christian Fellowship. We have four core values: discipleship, evangelism, quiet time, and the table. This can all be found (with revelation and illumination) in our biblical mission verse: Acts 2:42. So I am very excited. The LORD has been so good to me and my family. I know he is already in the process of loving on them and drawing them closer to Him. I'm excited to see where this fast is going. Lord, I commit it unto you. Please don't let me strive for grace or abuse your grace. Let me be in the middle of your grace. Do not cast me away from your presence. Do not take your holy spirit from me! I am so excittteeeddd, cause  I KNOW it's only up from here!!! It is the glory of God to conceal things, but the glory of kings is to search things out... I WAnt to be like a king!!

So, so, so... we meet again.

So, to update this blog with 4 and 1/2 months of missing work would be mad. So, I will highlight the main events: my dad got a disease called MDS and myelofibrosis over the summer. That was pretty tough on the family, but it brought us closer together. In the midst of him getting out of the hospital, after being there for two weeks, we moved to a new house. So, that was also crazy. I stayed home and helped out with working the business some days and cleaning out the old house, while my dad started a relentless cycle of chemo and blood transfusions. Luckily, we found out last month that my uncle fit the HLA criteria for a bone marrow transfusion for my dad. It has been tough going back to college 1,000 miles away and living everything behind. Mind you, I really did think there was a stronger chance I would change down here. Don't get me wrong, I've met AMAZING friends and community, but I don't feel like I'm conquering life, I feel like I'm getting conquered by life. I've told Jesus many times that I don't feel like I have life and life to the fullest. I don't have perfect joy and peace, but I really desire it. Jesus has told me many things to do here on campus, like healing a professor that can't walk. But, of course, I have yet to obey. I found out this month that I'm moving into a new apartment in January with two of my close friends that I met last year. I can't stand it anymore in this place.
Side Note: ya, this place was found 2 weeks before I had to move-in//i went potluck on all three room mates, and it has just ended in a horrendous, bitter situation
Of course, you know the daily grind of life will wear me down. Therefore, I'm only taking 12 hours this semester. I'm also changing my major from Biochemistry to Environmental Health Science to incorporate a public health aspect into my pre-med studies. Also, I know I'm way more interested in that than anything else. I have a minor in Arabic and Religion. So, hopefully I can continually pursue that. I have to take 18 hours next semester. In the summer, I'll probably take Bio Stats and English.
I haven't been having quiet times for the past 2 weeks. Funny how time flies. Maybe that's why I'm writing this blog right now: to completely and utterly avoid having my quiet time. No, I'm not afraid of getting punished by God for not praying, but like I told Jesus I want the words I write and the prayers I pray line up with his will, word, and promises. I want perfect love to cast out all fear in me. I want to walk in my calling here and now. I pray that revival happens on campus, and people are just walking in Isaiah 4.
What else can I say?
I went to two weddings this October. My cousin's wedding and my friends here at the college ministry, REFUGE. The wedding were both beautiful, but very different. Mostly, because one had more money. Come on, please.. we are in college, what do you expect? =P
Speaking of weddings... I'M GETTING MARRIED!

haha joke, but i really wish.



ahhhh....there you see, my friends is time to escape writing this blog, and start seeking God, because I'm starting to feel that tug and that passion coming back into my heart. love love love.