So, to update this blog with 4 and 1/2 months of missing work would be mad. So, I will highlight the main events: my dad got a disease called MDS and myelofibrosis over the summer. That was pretty tough on the family, but it brought us closer together. In the midst of him getting out of the hospital, after being there for two weeks, we moved to a new house. So, that was also crazy. I stayed home and helped out with working the business some days and cleaning out the old house, while my dad started a relentless cycle of chemo and blood transfusions. Luckily, we found out last month that my uncle fit the HLA criteria for a bone marrow transfusion for my dad. It has been tough going back to college 1,000 miles away and living everything behind. Mind you, I really did think there was a stronger chance I would change down here. Don't get me wrong, I've met AMAZING friends and community, but I don't feel like I'm conquering life, I feel like I'm getting conquered by life. I've told Jesus many times that I don't feel like I have life and life to the fullest. I don't have perfect joy and peace, but I really desire it. Jesus has told me many things to do here on campus, like healing a professor that can't walk. But, of course, I have yet to obey. I found out this month that I'm moving into a new apartment in January with two of my close friends that I met last year. I can't stand it anymore in this place.
Side Note: ya, this place was found 2 weeks before I had to move-in//i went potluck on all three room mates, and it has just ended in a horrendous, bitter situation
Of course, you know the daily grind of life will wear me down. Therefore, I'm only taking 12 hours this semester. I'm also changing my major from Biochemistry to Environmental Health Science to incorporate a public health aspect into my pre-med studies. Also, I know I'm way more interested in that than anything else. I have a minor in Arabic and Religion. So, hopefully I can continually pursue that. I have to take 18 hours next semester. In the summer, I'll probably take Bio Stats and English.
I haven't been having quiet times for the past 2 weeks. Funny how time flies. Maybe that's why I'm writing this blog right now: to completely and utterly avoid having my quiet time. No, I'm not afraid of getting punished by God for not praying, but like I told Jesus I want the words I write and the prayers I pray line up with his will, word, and promises. I want perfect love to cast out all fear in me. I want to walk in my calling here and now. I pray that revival happens on campus, and people are just walking in Isaiah 4.
What else can I say?
I went to two weddings this October. My cousin's wedding and my friends here at the college ministry, REFUGE. The wedding were both beautiful, but very different. Mostly, because one had more money. Come on, please.. we are in college, what do you expect? =P
Speaking of weddings... I'M GETTING MARRIED!
haha joke, but i really wish.
ahhhh....there you see, my friends is time to escape writing this blog, and start seeking God, because I'm starting to feel that tug and that passion coming back into my heart. love love love.
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